I’ve tried to restrain myself from making five year plans because, well, I’ve learned that
too many things happen and change in five years to ever plan around
them. Nevertheless, it is important to me to have somewhat of an idea of where
I would like to go and what I want to do. This past year has been extremely
crazy for me and has made me question exactly what it is I want to devote my
life to, occupationally. I’m a psychology, polisci major and a coach so I have
a variety of different options available to me in terms of future career paths.
This has been a bit of a problem for me because well the only thing harder than
having no choice, is having too many. I’ve applied to grad schools for
counseling, and I’ve continued to take coaching jobs in hopes of it leading to
teaching positions but for whatever reason those options just didn’t seem like
me. So I devised a new plan and have worked tirelessly to ensure it works out.
I have decided I want to go to law school. However, having graduated early, I
have literally been in school non-stop, through the summers with school and
field hockey since I was in high school. Being somewhat burnt out, I know I’m
not quite ready to dedicate myself to the time and effort that law school
requires, just yet. So to extend the time before I will go back to school, I
have spent countless hours over the past 4 months applying for a position in a
particular organization that will allow me to build a great resume and help pay
for and get into law school. That’s what I’ve been waiting for. I made it
through phone interviews, tests, personal and educational background checks,
and even final personal interviews. I nailed the interviews, have a stellar
resume and all the credentials one would need for such a position. Still, it’s
extremely competitive and you just never know…
I have been left to simply wait to hear back for over a
month now; providing a patience I didn’t know that I had. I hear back tomorrow.
I have to say I am nervously excited. This particular job could potentially
take me to another city outside St. Louis, a place I’ve never left. For the
first time, I have a plan but also face an unknown. Tomorrow I will be faced
with one of four new challenges. One, I don’t get the job and will have to create
a new plan for myself for the next year before the 2013 law school year begins.
My second option would be that I get a position in St. Louis; one that I would
have to choose to accept and commit to for the next two years. The third challenge
would be that I am offered the position in a new city (most likely Dallas or
Jacksonville), in which case I would have to seriously consider leaving the
life I’ve built here in St. Louis. And finally the possibility would be if I was
offered a position, I could choose to turn it down.
It’s finally here. I’m down to the last 24 hours of
waiting and almost wish I could push it back a few more days. After tomorrow, I
have one week to make a decision that, in essence, will affect the rest of
my life. The idea of growing up and being an adult sounds really great; the reality
of it actually being here is pretty nerve-wrenching. So wish me luck, for whichever
option you hope I get! I’ll let you know how it goes… in the meantime, I will
be here waiting…
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